From the August 2, 2020 Bulletin of St. Anthony Church, Hillsdale, Michigan
Did you hever have a particularly bad day when nothing seems to work out and every thought you have is negative? I had one of those days last week. It started when I first woke up after a restless night with so much weighing on my brain. I began getting ready for work feeling down in the dumps.
As I drove to work, I was hoping that a song on the Christian radio station might help stop the depressing thoughts there were racing through my brain. But, for some reason, not one song seemed relatable, and that only made me feel more upset.
At work, I felt like everyone was in a good mood except for me. I tried to focus on all the needs of the many “friends” who pulled into our parking lot for food. It was somewhat of a distraction, but still the unsettling feelings came through. I had to stop at Walmart on the way home for a couple of needed items. It felt good to be going home, and I thought perhaps that’s all I needed. It was raining and I knew I would get soaked walking into the store, so I reached down between the two seats to grab my umbrella, but, of course, it wasn’t there. I remembered the kids had taken it out to play and never returned it. I thought, “Great, that just goes along with the rest of the day.”
I saw a young lady walking back to her car in a pair of the shortest shorts I have ever seen and a bikini bathing suit top that barely covered her body. Please, try to undertsand how out of sorts I was when I yelled, “Hey, you forgot your shirt, you’re just wearing your bra!” Thank goodness the windows were rolled up in the car.
I quickly gathered the items I needed from the store, complaining underneath my mask about the man walking around the store without a mask, who had just picked up a peach from the produce aisle and was eating it in the store. I left the store and was driving through the parking lot, when a tattooed man in a large jeep was trying to go the wrong way in the parking lot aisle and was blocking me and several others from leaving. I once again (with the windows rolled up) yelled out, “What’s wrong with ou? You’re going the wrong way!”
As I continued the rest of the 10 minute drive home, the rain had ended. The clouds had parted, and the sun was starting to break through in that way that looks like rays of sun pouring down from heaven. It was so beautiful. Just then, on the radio blared my new favorite song entitled “The Goodness of God”. The chorus says, “All my life you have been faithful, all my life you have been so, so good. With every breath that I am able, I will sing of the goodness of God.”
All of a sudden, a peace came upon me and as I cried, I felt that goodness. So, if you have a day like that one, just remember how much God does love you. He will show you eventually. Or, maybe He’s been showing you, but you are not listening, And, of course, if you want to yell at someone, make sure your windows are rolled up.